Inside Kurt Cobain's Tragic Suicide 30 Years After the Nirvana Legend's Death

The musician was found dead in his home in 1994, only five months after the band's famous live taping of their 'MTV Unplugged' album

On April 5, 1994, the world lost legendary musician Kurt Cobain, who, at age 27, took his own life at his Seattle home with a 20-gauge shotgun. His body was found three days later by an electrician.

In a 1994 article in Rolling Stone, writer Neil Strauss took a deep dive into the Nirvana lead singer's final days, including a look at his lengthy battle with drugs and depression.

Cobain's body had been found to contain high traces of heroin and Valium when he died, though at the time of his death, Nirvana bassist Krist Novoselic dismissed the idea that his drug habit was the reason he died by suicide.

“Just blaming it on smack is stupid,” Novoselic told a Seattle newspaper at the time. “Smack was just a small part of his life.” Indeed, Cobain had long suffered from clinical depression, having been diagnosed with it in high school.

“Kurt could just be very outgoing and funny and charming,” Butch Vig, who produced Nirvana‘s landmark 1991 album Nevermind, told Rolling Stone. “And a half hour later, he would just go sit in the corner and be totally moody and uncommunicative.”

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Kurt Cobain onstage for Nirvana's 'MTV Unplugged' taping and performance in New York on Nov. 18, 1993.

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In the days leading up to Cobain's death, plenty of family and friends had expressed major concern for the rock star, who wasn't returning anyone's calls. His mother, Wendy O'Connor, filed a missing person's report and wife Courtney Love — who was also detoxing from drugs at the time — hired a private investigator to try and track him down.

Weeks before his suicide, friends and family had also attempted to enact a full-scale intervention to curb his heroin use. Love had threatened to leave him, and Novoselic and Nirvana guitarist Pat Smear said they would break up the band if he didn't check into rehab.

Cobain went, but he didn't stay, walking out of a California clinic two days after he admitted himself on April 1, 1994, instead returning to Seattle.

On April 5, he locked himself in a room above his garage and shot himself in the head. According to the medical examiner report, his body was identifiable only by his fingerprints. A radio station was the first to broadcast the news, which shook not just the music industry but the entire world.

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Cobain left behind a note, writing at the end: "Please keep going Courtney for Francis," referring to their daughter, Frances Bean, who was 2 at the time. "For her life will be so much happier without me. I love you. I love you."

If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988, text "STRENGTH" to the Crisis Text Line at 741741 or go to 988lifeline.org.

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